Sunday, March 15, 2009
Sunday.
4:24 PM
Helped my mum to do cheese cake.
For her.
Will be doing one for myself soon.
Will be going grandma house soon.
After i am back will do some homework.
Tomorrow will be a long day for me.
Will be going at 12pm till the night.
Almost 9 hours outside.
Think will die.
My heart is having problem.
It is like pain?
Then weird weird feeling?
Told ma about it.
And tell her i will be dying.
Then she say no and ask me see doctor.
Not going to see one.
Haha.
Hope to see her tomorrow.
It's been long since i last chat with her?
Face to face.
And go out with her.
I really miss the time.
Hopefully this year i will go out with her.
Maybe this week?
Or after my Os.
My mum is very piss by my dad.
Then she is throwing her anger at my brother and i.
Arghhhh.
I rather be out everyday.
Not to shop.
But to do my homework.
I don't think i can do it at home.
In this kind of environment.
I got the feeling of running away again.
What can i do to stop this feeling?
I thought of drinking last night.
I thought of drinking tomorrow.
Is drinking a way?
Or is there other ways?
I really no idea.
Helped my mum to do cheese cake.
For her.
Will be doing one for myself soon.
Will be going grandma house soon.
After i am back will do some homework.
Tomorrow will be a long day for me.
Will be going at 12pm till the night.
Almost 9 hours outside.
Think will die.
My heart is having problem.
It is like pain?
Then weird weird feeling?
Told ma about it.
And tell her i will be dying.
Then she say no and ask me see doctor.
Not going to see one.
Haha.
Hope to see her tomorrow.
It's been long since i last chat with her?
Face to face.
And go out with her.
I really miss the time.
Hopefully this year i will go out with her.
Maybe this week?
Or after my Os.
My mum is very piss by my dad.
Then she is throwing her anger at my brother and i.
Arghhhh.
I rather be out everyday.
Not to shop.
But to do my homework.
I don't think i can do it at home.
In this kind of environment.
I got the feeling of running away again.
What can i do to stop this feeling?
I thought of drinking last night.
I thought of drinking tomorrow.
Is drinking a way?
Or is there other ways?
I really no idea.
Sorry ma.
It didn't help this time.
How i wish you is my sibling.
So you will be there for me.
I envy your siblings. :(
[edited]
I think ma is somehow angry ba.
She didn't reply me.
After i told her i want to drink.
I want to drink for a reason.
I can't get to sleep.
Many things is in my head.
:( Need to pour it all out.
I need MA. :)
She is always there for me.
Giving me advise.
I wonder what will happen to me without her.
Love her. :D
Intend to take lots of pictures tomorrow.
And i want to take a pictur with MA badly.
Hopefully i will find her tomorrow and take one.