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    Monday, June 30, 2008
    SCHOOL
    3:34 PM
    Term 3 had started for 2 weeks already. I am still feeling that i am slacking cause i can't really what the teachers are teaching now. I really don't know what had happen to me. :( I got to wake up fast cause end of year exam are in 14 more weeks time. PLEASE WAKE UP ELIZABETH. And for those people who are also like me. Please wake up too. By the way today i keep bumping into my JIE JIE. :) Haha. She very cool one. She today relief the classes is almost all at my level one. So i keep bumping into her. :) Very happy. But after recess. I am not that happy cause my DEAR PAPA is walking like a lame. I very sad when i saw her like this. I actually wanted to walk out of the class one but i scare teacher don't allow so i never but she went down also. Than not long after she came up again. She walk until like very pain. :( Seeing her like this hurts my heart. :( Why come to school. Sprain ankle cannot walk up and down the stairs and walk for very long. I sprain my ankle last year and did not recover after 1 month. It took me almost 2 months time to be fully recovered. But last year i still went to school. But i got wrap u my ankle so that it won't be that pain when i walk but you never. :( Plus last year i don't really have to climb the stairs cause our class in at the ground floor remember? But you is the total opposite of me. :( Ya just remembered that i saw MA early in the morning before school starts. She is on the taxi and stopped at the traffic light so i saw her and she saw me. So we both smiled. :) Haha. My MAMA, PAPA and JIEJIES all very CUTE one. Haha. Also my DEAR LadyG also ar. Go ITE with her students for lessons also can message me one. Haha. Plus she very funny cause after she replied 4 - 5 of my messages she ask me that why i can message while i having lesson one. -_- Haha. :) She say she very bored so i want to talk to her. :) Plus she also very childish one. :X haha. Shall not say what she says. :) Tonight my Uncle and his family is coming back to Singapore. :) Which means that i gonna have presents soon. :) He and his wife promise me to get me a present cause i got good results. My dad also got promise me. :) I want a SLR or a LAPTOP! That's all i need already than i will be left with nothing to buy unless i want a newer version of the things i have. :) I got a PDA phone, PSP so now i need a LAPTOP and a SLR only. Than the rest of my money can save for me to open chalet next year and also to save for me to go to university. :)
    She really has became a MADAM already. While looking at her profile. Their some videos and pictures of her wedding being uploaded by her friends. I look through all. Felt that her husband loves her a lot and i am very happy for that. But i don't know why i wept. She has not been online for quite long already even if she is online i am not. :( I want to message her but her's got a husband now. A newly married couple. I don't wish to disturb them. And i am scare that the husband will think who she's message to, so i decided not to message her. It's been long seen i message or see her. Miss her. She different already. Hope that her husband will really treat her well and than love her lots. :) Hope that my DEAREST MADAM will stay sweet with her husband forever. :)
    Sunday, June 29, 2008
    PA
    12:42 PM
    PA you have go through alot this whole month. I can see from your friendster shoutout and so on. But i don't know what had really happen so i can't help you. When i saw you like this i am very sad. Cause i can't help you at all. This whole month for you is very tiring. Things are happening to you one after another. I really hope that all this can stop. I don't want to see you sad anymore. But PA like what i had told you i will be by your side forever supporting you. Neither happy nor sad. Seeing you nearly cried make me shocked. Be strong my PA. Although you told me that you nearly cried is because of the pain of your ankle i think that its only part of the reason.
    Saturday, June 28, 2008
    BUSY
    8:46 PM
    I am busy doing all my homeworks now cause i going overseas in almost an housr time. Busy busy. Will be back tomorrow night. Got to go. Bye.
    Friday, June 27, 2008
    Half happy.
    9:28 PM
    Today finally my chinese teacher never come and it means it's free period. :D Haha. I am not evil to be happy that she never come i know that she maybe is sick or what than never come to school. I am happy cause this week almost whole week see her and have her lesson. So i don't want her lesson ONLY. I am sure that my mother tongue class have lots of fun. :) Than is Chemistry. Have experiment today. Still okay. But something happen my class broke 3 test tubes and there is a cockroach in the science lab that i was in. It at first was at my friend's shoe if i am not wrong. It's on a girl's leg but she never scream. My teacher also scared of it. She went to the back of the class okay? And the girls ran all over the class while the experiment in on. Haha. :) That the boys went to pull it into the rubbish bin. It's still alive. But duon't know what hapen the cockroach came out of the bin and my teacher went to the back of the class AGAIN. Haha. So this time the boys kill it. :) That is the dun part only. Today's both A and E Math was okay. :) English think my teacher got abit pissed off. After school when to white sands with the guitar girls + Amanda Goo. To accompany Aishah to get her mum's birthday present! So went back to school after that cause got COL rehearsal. Play a few round before we go on stage. :) Quite well done. :) MA was there so is JIE. :) Rehearsal was quite long. When we was on the stage i know that we didn't play that wel cause we can't hear each other. :( Never mind we will improve on it. :) Kept the guitars at dance studio and went back to the hall to stone cause the teachers got to go for meeting first and we got to wait for the meeting to end to have a de-breath about the rehearsal. Some feed back was given. Think that the eed backs are still okay. :) By the way i got to say sorry to my form teacher who is in charge of the rehearsal today. Cause as today was the first combine rehearsal so every one was a bit blur. And our Madam of the guitar was not there to help us out so there is only sec3 to do all the jobs. And so we wanted to arrange the people properly but my teacher ask we go on stage so i just say I WANT TO ARRANGE THEM ONE. Think she hear wrong untill i say about the chairs. Than she say sorry to me. It's not about the chairs. :( Don't say sorry i feel bad now. By the way today is my DEAREST MADAM BIG DAY. She's getting married. :) Hope that she had a wonderful day today and enjoy everything that happen today as it's once in the life time. :) Wish that both of them will have a happy marriage plus a every lasting marriage. She's too busy to reply my message. :) Tomorrow at night going to malaysia cause my grandmother birthday. So by tomorrow night i got to finish all the home works. :( Got around 5 homeworks. :( I don't know why when i talk about my class chalet thing i will have no mood to talk about it. Don't know what happen to me. :( Pa sprain her ankle so i hope she will get well soon and also forget about those unhappy things that happen. :)

    I MISS MY MADAM.
    GET WELL SOON PA.
    LOVE MA PA MADAM JIE's. <3x100000000000000000000
    Thursday, June 26, 2008
    BAD MOOD! SAD! TIRED!
    6:32 PM
    I am very tired now but still want to post cause today a lot things happen. Both happy and sad. But more of the sad side. Let me talk about those happy things first. Today 2 people birthday one is my friend and another is my junior. Help my junior celebrate her birthday. This is very cool. Cause during the break time Shaliza, Zalifah and myself went out to buy a cake and came back to school. So we lighted up the cake outside the class room that we are in. And half way through while Mr yeo was talking i went into the class with the sec3 girls and we sang HAPPY BIRTHDAY song to her. Haha. She was very shocked. Sabo her abit by putting cream on her first 2 rounds. 1st round put alot but 1nd not that much. And i put the cream on Shaliza face too cause her birthday is also near. :) Madam replied my message today. :) She's getting married tomorrow. :) Happy marriage. Every lasting marriage. :) She replied me despite the fact that she is busy preparing for her wedding things. She sure very pretty tomorrow. :) Saw MA going home with a smile. She abit high. That's all for the happy things but not to the sad things that happen today. Firsty i am still unwell. Secondly i am angry and upset of what the sec2 did. Its ok for me to have fun when it time to have fun but please be serious when you are suppose to be serious. Don't just take your own guitar and go HELP OUT if you want to go home early. We are a CCA group we are suppose to work together as one. We sec3 will be stepping down next year you all can't count on us anymore. You all got to learn to be leaders and know what to do. Don't just stand their. I am quite upset abit this. Why we sec3 can do it and you all can't? 6 sec3 girls can carry all the 24 guitars to the classroom by our self but why can't almost the 20+ sec2's can't? Please help out. We can't be by your sides forever. Not all the sec2 are like what i had said some did help out. Plus hey you guys are now senior already no longer juniors. You all now have junior already set a good example. Don't run around the place and play when you need to go out please get permission from the seniors or the teacher in charge. I really don't like scolding. It's been long since i last scolded you guys so badly. Really very piss off just now. I am SORRY to scold you guys but we got to do the things we got to do. The classroom that we use we got to return it to its original shape. Anything happen in there we will be in trouble cause we are the last to use the place. That's all i want to say about CCA. I am very tired and everywhere is aching. History is not that good cause nothing when into my brain during history lesson. I think i got to count on myself to get good results for history.

    Lasty i want to say this to my DEAREST PA!
    Dear Pa. Today i saw you walking like a lame (not that lame we youngster use) like that. My heart hurts. But i can't help you i can only smile and hope you recover soon. Knowing that many things happen to you recently. But know already also cannot help you cause i don't really know what actually happen to you. For this i can also only hope that everything will be fine and be over soon. Don't want to see you like this. I will be sad. When my CCA ended. I saw you sitting by the stair case near to the general office. When i saw you sitting there i quickly run to you. It hurts me when i saw you sitting there. You nearly cried cause of the pain of your leg as what you told me. I can't do anything at that time also. I felt that i am useless. :( I can only walk away as you want to let me see you cry and i will cry if i see you cry. I am a very emotional person. But when i was about to walk away another teacher walk pass and say a joke. So PA stand up and joke back. But i know that she is in pain. Wanted to send her back home or on call a taxi for her. But she say she don't need one as she will be taking one outside school to save the on call fee and lucky she got a friend to help her. My DEAR please take care of yourself. Don't fall sick so often. Be careful when you walk ok? Don't hurt your ankle and leg anymore ok? DEAR ar i wil be there for you forever cause you are my PA. This week i also got a bit of problems but i am more worried about you my DEAR. I hope to know what had happen to you but i don't want to ask too much too. But just remember that i will always be there for you. :) Take care of your ankle. Get well soon. :)


    Loves,
    Your Daughter.
    Wednesday, June 25, 2008
    HISTORY
    8:39 PM
    Oh my god. I tell you my history lesson is getting abit dry and boring. The new teacher is talking way too much and teaching only abit. Everyone in this History class wants back the old one. MISS CHUA! Arghh. She's (miss chua) is too busy with her personal things. Hai. She didn't even reply my message. But never mind. PA's sick again. :( Hope she will be better. Teachers like to ask me help them to do things and i can't say no right? So no choice than say ok and than the POA file not i wrong. I got ask the POA rep to take but he don't want so what can i do. And than the files got 3 boxes and no one help me how to carry. -_- I got to do some many things think i super women meh? Forget it never mind. There's CCA tomorrow. But will not go on time cause got something on. :) Die. There is history tomorrow again and i got to see the new teacher's face AGAIN. 3 times this week due to the change of the timetable. :( Whole class dislike her. Argh. She talk a lot that is not needed. Can see from our face that we don't like her. MADAm didn't reply me. I am upset. Still left with social studies and english and Amath holiday assignment to do. -_- :( Mood isn't that good cause of history. Everyone became very quiet no more laughters no more fun. And it's my first time nearly sleep during history lesson. But can't cause the teacher called my name out loud. :( No entertainment. :( MA's busy with her things. :( If things can be undo for once i will hope that our history teacher will not change. Hope to survive in this.
    Tuesday, June 24, 2008
    SICK TIRED WHATEVER
    10:09 PM
    Oh my god i am feeling very sick now my stomach is aching AGAIN. I morning got DIARRHOEA. Yesterday afternoon was alright but at night pain again and this morning wrost. Whole day i having stomach ache and now very bad. Today lessons was ok but i was slacking a lot so its like nothing when into my brain today. :( Haha. Today saw my PA MA JIE. Haha. Finally my JIE saw me ok. Haha. :D Nothing much le. CCA was a bit high ba. But that time still having stomach ache so i can't really play. It's very PAIN!
    Monday, June 23, 2008
    Pictures of BABY Shengkai
    5:54 PM
    A few pictures to bright up my day. This are some of the pictures of my BABY COSUIN SHENGKAI i took while talking to my auntie who is in malaysia. Haha. He very cute. Same face as his brother. Haha. After this little guy over here is born his brother became very mature. :) Love this little guy over here. He is a new member of my family. The youngest so everyone dotes him alot. :) Hope this pictures will make you all smile. :)

    SWEET DREAMS.


    His month open BIG BIG.


    I am sleeping DO NOT DISTURB. This is what he is think. He just had his water than sleep le.


    His face very cute in this picture.


    I am staring at you. :)


    You can't see my eyes now. Haha.


    Those words above each pictures is i think one. Haha. For fun. :)
    First day of school. There is only 3 things that makes me happy today. First is early in the morning my PA reply my message. :) Second is my DEAR JIE came back to my school after 1 year and i saw her. Third is i saw MA at staff room there. Till that moment was very happy. But i got a call from my friend telling me that MA can't go. I was shocked. Than message MA ask her when can i call her. Than she say now so called her and talk for a while she say that she is very busy and got to check if she going whole day on that saturday that we having chalet or not than can comfirm if she is going. Than i don't know what happen my mind was very messy can't think properly. So i say some thing that is not very nice but never scold her lah. She said sorry and that makes me feel bad. SORRY ar. Today quite many things happen. First is change of history teacher, second is i am not that well, third ma maybe can't go chalet, forth chalet maybe will be canceled due to PA and MA not going. Freaking bad mood. Haven had my lunch and now having gastric. Shall blog later.
    School reopening tomorrow le. And will be doing all my homework later. I just came back from the doctor. The doctor say i got food poisoning wor. Haha. I got one day MC so i not sure if i tomorrow going to school or not. Will see if i tonight still sick or not. Hai. I am down with a lot of homework. Need to go do homework liao. I got school and tuition homework. Damn. Hai. At night going to grandma house to have dinner. Got to go and do homework le. Bye.
    Sunday, June 22, 2008
    ?
    8:52 PM
    I really don't know what happen to me. It's just a message from me to her hoping that she will get use to her new school and etc. I was hoping that she will reply me. But she didn't and actually i am not that upset till when i on my computer and know that she have time to update her profile and etc. Why can't you spend 2 minutes replying my message? I have change. I am no longer the one who will keep messaging you already. I have no idea what to say to you. Guess what, what i send to you today i type it out yesterday. I was scared that i will not remember what to say to you. I didn't send to you yesterday cause if i send to you yesterday than today i can't message you already cause there is no new topic for me to talk to you. So yesterday i just type everything out and save in my phone and until today when i see doctor that time than i message you. Around that time you maybe is having your lunch and i seriously don't mind late reply unless the thing i ask you is very important than i will like angry abit. At least you bother to reply me when you are free. Tomorrow is the start of a new semester which means some people that teaches me will no longer be teaching me anymore and their will be new teacher for me. This is a big big big change to me. If last time no matter what happen to me. sick or what i will go school but not i got no mood to go school anymore. But i know i got to study. Last time there is many reasons for me to go to school but now there is many reasons for me to not go to school. Last time i go to school is because i give people face than go school one and cause will have their lessons and will see them so my mood will be better but now? Everything change le. This is not what i want. I want to turn back the time or make everyone stay where they are no changes. Changing to a new school maybe good for you but not for me. Whenever i saw your picture at your profile in facebook my face changes to this = I am not that happy. I still remember that when i was in primary school i will keep disturb people and etc one. The main aim is just to let that person remember me and also that person is very important to me and that is why i will disturb that person if some one is not important to me why will i waste my time to disturb that person and let that person think that i am very irritating. All your memories is with your 4E's. Haha. Thank you for all that you have post online it tells me that i am really very silly to think that you will miss my class and me. I wonder when than i will forget about you. I will never get to know what you are thinking. I know what the others think but you? I really don't know. I got to go to iron my uniform, pack bag and shower le. BYE.
    I am SICK. AGAIN. This one is like last year one. But not wrost than last year one. Cause last year i am sick for ONE WHOLE WEEK and i will go to toilet every 3 minutes. But now is stomach pain than go. Will see doctor if tomorrow i am still unwell. Cause if this still happen tomorrow than i will hae stomach ache for 3 days liao. I am feeling very warm and tired now. :( Bye.
    Saturday, June 21, 2008
    TIRED
    3:49 PM
    It has been 9 days since i last post. I am very tired right now cause i just came back to Singapore. I miss many people so as i am reading or looking at people's profile i know that they had enjoy their holiday. During this holiday trip to Cambodia i think i have change. Cause when ever i am thinking about those sad things that happen like people leaving and etc i will cry for very long but during this 9 days when i think about it i did cry but not very long. I think i had became stronger in controlling emotions. I am not feeling that well too. I am have stomach ache. School is reopening very soon tomorrow is the last day to enjoy. Plus i haven do my holiday homework yet. Arghhh. Yeah. At least there is something that can make me happy. That is some one is coming back to teach my school. She is not my MADAM but a very good friend of mine like a big sister of mine. :D Very happy that she is coming back to my school after a year time. :)
    Wednesday, June 11, 2008
    TOMORROW
    4:00 AM
    Tomorrow will be going overseas liao. :( Today get woke up by phone calls. :( At 9am+ get disturb till 10am+. Than in the end wake up liao. Than my mum call home (cause she outside) ask me to wake up cause want go out eat breakfast + lunch. Than ok lor. Had breakfast + lunch with grandparents and Melissa. Than went food court eat and than saw Natasha Kang. Haha. Than eat eat and went off. My mum make me carry all things go home while she go to Tampines. Hai. The things very heavy can? Than never mind i carry home than here am i blogging. I am not feeling very well now. :( Hai. Today will be packing all my things liao. I am very tired. Going to sleep later. Shall blog again later at night. MAMA's overseas! :( PAPA is busy i think so is MADAM. :( Never mind. I am use to this kind of things liao. Bye bye!
    I dislike filling up forms when you go overseas. I hate my brother. I am scared that i fill up wrong information in the form so i asked him to help me check it but than he didn't than he still say something that is not very nice. Argh. Hai. In 5 hours time going airport liao. Hai. I can't sleep don't know why. MA PA MADAM I MISS YOU!
    Tuesday, June 10, 2008
    11 more hours before going i 'fly'.
    8:51 PM
    Tomorrow's flight is at 8+am. Than must wake up at around 5am cause 6am got to go airport liao. Need go into the departure there to buy things need get my perfume. Haha. Mine finishing liao. Finally i message MADAM and PAPA. :D Haha. They reply. Buti not that happy cause. Hai. Never mind. Just hope that when i am not in singapore every thing will be fine. Nothing will happen to anyone and everyone will be better. :D I miss MAMA she overseas for almost 2 weeks liao. Next week she will be back liao. But i am not in singapore. :( Hai.
    I am tired after i went for the BBQ just now. 2pm went to white sand to had my lunch. Than went to Cassandra's house with Chen and Amanda. :) Than got 2 person already there liao. Than very sian cause nothing to do. So when everyone came than we took a cab to Pasir Ris park to have our BBQ. Haha. Very funny to have BBQ with the Ffam. Haha. :D Had BBQ than play play play lor. Haha. Funny sia them shall not say too much about the BBQ cause quite a bit of things happen and i am lazy to type. Tired too. Haha. Tomorrow got to stay at home to pack my bag for wednesday liao. Heard that during July my Uncle's going to book a whole bus plus the bus is those high class de. Whole bus leh to Malaysia but that time i got class BBQ leh. I don't know how lah. Arghh. Outing helps me to forget everything that is going on. Today i have forgetten what happen totally forget abit it. I don't know if i should be happy or sad. Hai. Tomorrow i can finally message THEM. Today i am too busy liao so no time to message PAPA. :( Hai. Got to go now. I am tired.
    Going out soon to meet people than off to BBQ. Haha. Today monday liao and wednesday will be going overseas le. I left only with one day to pack. I miss MA and she's overseas and i also miss PA and MADAM! Argh. Hai. Shall message PA later to talk to her. :D Haha. Madam tomorrow than i message her. I need food i am hungry. Argh. Lazy to bring things leh. I need to bring my phone which is so big, wallet and house key. Argh. Plus i don't wish to bring a bag with me. So everything will be in my pocket. Argh. I am haven late nights every day. Shall go out earier to get some food. :D I have slowly slowly stay away from my phone. Trying hard not to want to message you. If i want i also can't cause now i can;t think of a topic to start with you. I will let off my hands now. After this holiday everything will change and i mean EVERYTHING. I am scared that i will also change my attitude. I don't like to show my attitude cause i know myself. When i show my attitude it means that it is going to last for quite some time and i will dislike the teacher a lot. I am now thinking if i should go to JC or Ploy. It may seems that it's still early back actually it's not. Cause if you have decided where you want to go you can start finding a school which is better in the subject you want to learn. No one can help me. I really don't know where to go. I am lost. I got to maintain my current result and improve on my Humanities and English. Stress will be more soon when school reopens. My family is giving me a lot of stress. Cause i am the only person in the family that have good results. And also i don't want to let my PA, MA, MADAM, JIES see me having bad results. This is only part of my stress not as much as those my family gave me. Got to go out now to get some food. Bye. will try to blog again at night if i am not tired. If you are reading my blog please don't feel bad of what cuase i need a place to say out everything in me.
    Omg! I am sick. My flu is back. My block nose is like damn bad. I can't breath properly now. I can only breath from ONE nose. Arghh. Stupid. Plus i am having sore throat don't know why. Arghh. Damn. Hai. Hope that i will feel better tomorrow if not i got to go see a doctor cause i am going overseas on wednesday and i can't go there when i am sick if not will be wrost. I don't want to be as sick as last year when i went cambodia in june. Argh. I am sick for one whole week. Plus i vomited, high fever and stomach ache. The stomach ache makes me go toilet 20 over times a day. Vomit make me empty my whole stomach. Fever make me feel very warm. All of this make me can't eat. Argh. I am sick. Argh. Now is almost 1am in the morning le and i haven sleep.
    Sunday, June 8, 2008
    ?
    4:43 PM
    I really don't know what happen to me. Remembering what you had did for us make me cry. I really don't know how to say it in words. I still can't let it go. Just bear with me for 2 more days and everything will be fine le. After that i will not be able to blog for almost 2 weeks or use my phone. I really want to message you but i can't i hope that i can throw my phone away but can i? I type this yesterday before i sleep in my phone. I have more than this to say but i am not feeling well last nite and it is 2am in the morning. So this is what i typed : MADAM. I hate to be alone. I don't like the feeling so i wanted you to be with me and since you are driving to the place i and you is going so i ask if you want to bring me there. Another thing is that i want to spend more time with you. Just being by your side is enough cause i will not be able to see you very soon. You are leaving. And you will be very busy. I don't think i can message you that often when school reopens cause i got to study and you will be busy even if you are free you got to do your house work so where will you have time to reply my message and go online often anymore. It is easy to say but it will be hard to do it. Tell me when will i see you again. Next year? Or maybe not anymore. Just bear with me for 2 more days will you? after this two days i will not disturb you anymore. I will give you peace and so on. Just bear with me. After you say that to me yesterday i can't think of a topic to start talking to you any more. If you think i am disturbing you or i had messaged you too much. I am sorry. I will not say why i did that. If not it will seems like i am giving reasons for everything that i had done. You pay your phone bill i also have to pay mine. Do you know i don't care how much did i message any one even if i had message more than what i can message per month i just don't care. Get scolding from parents than i will just keep quiet. Over too much than got to pay my bill myself and i got no choice. I know you are stress with your things but i am too. I had to act like nothing had happen yesterday when i saw you. I didn't have a chance to talk to you so? i didn't mind or went to disturb you just by knowing that you is there is enough. Yesterday is the last time i will be seeing you. I only talk to you not more than 10 words yesterday and the last word of mine to you was a BYE cause i got to leave. I think that after i left to you = nothing is missing. But to me something is. If some one who is not close to me and is leaving will i care or even cry for that person no. I cried alot this month. Did you know this? I am tired and sick. I have not recover. I had my flu for more than 2 weeks it is not getting any better when i cry. It became wrost. I will be strong after this i promise.



    2 more days.
    I miss MA and PA!
    I am sorry lah MADAM. Stop saying i naughty or bad liao lah. Aiyo. I am not reliant on you. I want you drive me there is cause i don't like to be alone. I hate the feeling. So i will always find people to go some where with me one. If no one follow me i will not go out. Cause i don't like the feeling! I do not want to reason with you so what i can only say is SORRY. I also don't like the feeling of my love ones leaving me. I hate this two feeling a lot. I message you is cause i am going overseas soon and when school reopens you will be very busy plus by than you already had another partner liao. So i don't think you will spend more time to reply my message ba. Hai. I want too be strong. But sorry lah. I can't. Don't worry i am not reliant to you. Don't be upset too. I am sorry. But after this i will not be messaging you so often le. I will let go slowly. Slowly. You had to leave and i had already slowly getting use to this. I now must get use to the life of no messaging world. Must also get use to a new teacher. Do you know how much i don't want to agree that you a leaving and i will be having a new teacher? Never mind. Will only message you when i am going overseas. I am tired really very tired. Do you know evertime that i saw you i will just forget everything just really enjoy the time together. But i don't really know what to say when i saw you i can only be my real me when i message people. I am tired MADAM. MADAM. Thank you for everything. I am also SORRY for whatever things that i did make you sad. I am TIRED TIRED! I wish i can stop everything but can i?
    When to airport at around 8.30pm. I reach airport at 9pm. Than cause a lot people there and i paiseh so i when to walk one big round. Than Amanda Goo call me and i went out. Haha. They quite funny in the uniform. Haha. So talk to Amanda and the others that is there. Talk talk talk. Than i keep helping them take photo lor. Camera women. So when i grow up and don't have a job i will go be a camera women. Haha. Than at almost 11pm they when to check in and i went off. I wish people BON VOYAGE. :D Than took a bus back. The bus very pack. Hai. Reach home at 11pm plus.
    Currently waiting for my tuition teacher to come she always late one. Hai. I now very moddy don't know why. I think is because of my MADAM ba. I just sense something is not right. That is what i can say. I don't dare to talk much with her cause she is busy doing her things. Today at night friends are going overseas for their school trip to Japan. I still considering if i should go to the airport or not. If go will see my MADAM than don't will sad or happy. : If never go than cannot say bye to friends. Hai. I don't know lah. Now the sky damn dark. Going to rain again. MADAM ar. :( Hai. Never mind. If you online later than i talk to you ba. whenever i saw your name appearing in some where i will intend to become EMO. Hai. MADAM!
    Friday, June 6, 2008
    LOST
    3:04 PM
    Went to school to pass the photos of Ms Amy's farewell to her. :D Saw MADAM than run to her lor. She say YO! untill very loud. Than she ask me wait for her to pass me the things that she want to pass back to the class so i wait lor. I wait for almost 30mins lor. -_- Than she finally come out but without anything to pass to me. Cause she forget i am waiting for her. -_- She faster go in and take the things. :D No hug sorry will cry. Sorry for playing my handphone game in fornt of you cause i don't dare to look in yours eyes as i am scared that i will cry. :( I am lost as i walk away by myself after i took the things from you. I wept. Tears almost drop out. I am lost. I don't know what to do. I don't want you to leave. I don't want a new teacher. I can;t imagine i myself having a new teacher a new 'enivornment' a new teaching method. I had promise ypu not to show attitude to the new teacher but i don't know if i can do that or not. This is the first time i go through this. After half a year you left. Will not be able to see you anymore or be taught by you. I can't smile anymore after you leave. It's not a good time to leave. I had go through so much with you both the happy and sad time. I don't like farewells. When you say if i want a hug sorry i can't give you one cause i know i will cry. At that moment i wanted to cry already. Arghhh. I don't like the feeling. I know i am silly but that's me and i will not change. Thank you for all the presents you gave me. Will save keep it somewhere. :D As for my results. Er. Will try to aim for better results ba. I got no mood for anything now. If you tomorrow is going to the airport than i will also be going. :D Don't leave me alone. LOST!!!!! I think it's time for me to sort things out. I don't want anyone to worry about me about anything and etc. I am tired. Next year will be a bigger farewell. As i am going to leave my secondary school liao. :( Hai. Everything is going to. :( MADAM's phone flat. -_- now than reply my message. Make me wait for ypu fpr 30mins. Haha. :)
    Thursday, June 5, 2008
    PICTURES
    8:12 PM

    :D

    part 3.

    part 2.

    part 1.

    ME n JOANA

    Me. :D

    ME :D

    :D :D
    :D
    Come take photo.
    Another present.

    Clap clap n bye bye.
    Bye

    Two people now emo-ing?
    What happen?

    Emo guy again.

    She's singing.

    Happy :D

    Happy. :D
    Wan fight ar?

    Hug from Aishah.

    Hug from Joana.

    I got a present. Yeah.
    Present.

    *not bad*

    Song song.

    Emo guy.

    Song song.

    Song song.

    Haha. Dunno y they funny.

    Oh no Ms Amy angry?
    Haha. :D
    Haha.
    Ms Amy. :D
    Again.
    Aishah :D
    Nike shoes. Purple -> Joana, Pink -> Mine
    Senior gerls. Candid.
    Again!
    Again
    Liyana ONG taken by JOANA

    Again.

    U take me i also taking you lor. :D
    Joana & Zalifah