Monday, December 29, 2008
How?
10:58 PM
Today i went out to shop. It all went well. Very good. Cause i got myself 3 new pairs of ear rings, 1 new water bottle and one new shirt. But while shoping i receive a message not something that make me happy. It's a message that tell me to go back to school for CCA. It is on the last day of this year. But i am sorry to say this i didn't practise the SYF song at all. I am sorry. But i really need to take a break this holiday. This year had been a very busy and stressful year for me. Ever since the first exam i took this year i have not stop studying. I have been studying for this whole year. I know everyone is also studying. But sorry it maybe is my problem. I am not pushing all this to someone of to find some reasons for me to do not learn the songs. It is just that really this year had been a bad year for me. Those people that is close to me should know why. This year i have many downs but i still act like nothing happen. But deep in my heart there is a deep cut already. I really don't know can i cope with the stress next year. And CCA is making me stress too. If anyone want to take over my position in Guitar i will let you have it. I really need a break. I am not that strong. This year i can overcome the downs i have is because people tell me what to do. But now no one is telling me what to do. Even there is it doesn't open my mind up. I am sorry but i have to say this. I do not like to be stress to do something. I will do it but without people giving me stress about. Just like my study and etc. I need someone to talk to. But who can i find. Sorry my friends i can't talk to you all about it cause the feeling is just not right. I use to have someone that i can talk to. But now. Due to some reasons that happen a few months back i can't talk to her like the past anymore. My biggest regret is that incident. I really hope that the incident will never happen and i will not lose a great listener. But everything had past. No point to talk about already. But human being is human. What we say is like so simple but it is actually very hard to be done. It happens to me too. See a few days later i will be thinking about the incident again. It is just 3/4 more days till school. I want to be happy to go back to school cause i can finally see my friends but at the same time there is a big problem that i hd been talking about it through out this post. :( Lets hope it will be over soon.
Today i went out to shop. It all went well. Very good. Cause i got myself 3 new pairs of ear rings, 1 new water bottle and one new shirt. But while shoping i receive a message not something that make me happy. It's a message that tell me to go back to school for CCA. It is on the last day of this year. But i am sorry to say this i didn't practise the SYF song at all. I am sorry. But i really need to take a break this holiday. This year had been a very busy and stressful year for me. Ever since the first exam i took this year i have not stop studying. I have been studying for this whole year. I know everyone is also studying. But sorry it maybe is my problem. I am not pushing all this to someone of to find some reasons for me to do not learn the songs. It is just that really this year had been a bad year for me. Those people that is close to me should know why. This year i have many downs but i still act like nothing happen. But deep in my heart there is a deep cut already. I really don't know can i cope with the stress next year. And CCA is making me stress too. If anyone want to take over my position in Guitar i will let you have it. I really need a break. I am not that strong. This year i can overcome the downs i have is because people tell me what to do. But now no one is telling me what to do. Even there is it doesn't open my mind up. I am sorry but i have to say this. I do not like to be stress to do something. I will do it but without people giving me stress about. Just like my study and etc. I need someone to talk to. But who can i find. Sorry my friends i can't talk to you all about it cause the feeling is just not right. I use to have someone that i can talk to. But now. Due to some reasons that happen a few months back i can't talk to her like the past anymore. My biggest regret is that incident. I really hope that the incident will never happen and i will not lose a great listener. But everything had past. No point to talk about already. But human being is human. What we say is like so simple but it is actually very hard to be done. It happens to me too. See a few days later i will be thinking about the incident again. It is just 3/4 more days till school. I want to be happy to go back to school cause i can finally see my friends but at the same time there is a big problem that i hd been talking about it through out this post. :( Lets hope it will be over soon.