Sunday, June 8, 2008
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4:43 PM
I really don't know what happen to me. Remembering what you had did for us make me cry. I really don't know how to say it in words. I still can't let it go. Just bear with me for 2 more days and everything will be fine le. After that i will not be able to blog for almost 2 weeks or use my phone. I really want to message you but i can't i hope that i can throw my phone away but can i? I type this yesterday before i sleep in my phone. I have more than this to say but i am not feeling well last nite and it is 2am in the morning. So this is what i typed : MADAM. I hate to be alone. I don't like the feeling so i wanted you to be with me and since you are driving to the place i and you is going so i ask if you want to bring me there. Another thing is that i want to spend more time with you. Just being by your side is enough cause i will not be able to see you very soon. You are leaving. And you will be very busy. I don't think i can message you that often when school reopens cause i got to study and you will be busy even if you are free you got to do your house work so where will you have time to reply my message and go online often anymore. It is easy to say but it will be hard to do it. Tell me when will i see you again. Next year? Or maybe not anymore. Just bear with me for 2 more days will you? after this two days i will not disturb you anymore. I will give you peace and so on. Just bear with me. After you say that to me yesterday i can't think of a topic to start talking to you any more. If you think i am disturbing you or i had messaged you too much. I am sorry. I will not say why i did that. If not it will seems like i am giving reasons for everything that i had done.You pay your phone bill i also have to pay mine. Do you know i don't care how much did i message any one even if i had message more than what i can message per month i just don't care. Get scolding from parents than i will just keep quiet. Over too much than got to pay my bill myself and i got no choice. I know you are stress with your things but i am too. I had to act like nothing had happen yesterday when i saw you. I didn't have a chance to talk to you so? i didn't mind or went to disturb you just by knowing that you is there is enough. Yesterday is the last time i will be seeing you. I only talk to you not more than 10 words yesterday and the last word of mine to you was a BYE cause i got to leave. I think that after i left to you = nothing is missing. But to me something is. If some one who is not close to me and is leaving will i care or even cry for that person no. I cried alot this month. Did you know this? I am tired and sick. I have not recover. I had my flu for more than 2 weeks it is not getting any better when i cry. It became wrost. I will be strong after this i promise.
2 more days.
I miss MA and PA!
I really don't know what happen to me. Remembering what you had did for us make me cry. I really don't know how to say it in words. I still can't let it go. Just bear with me for 2 more days and everything will be fine le. After that i will not be able to blog for almost 2 weeks or use my phone. I really want to message you but i can't i hope that i can throw my phone away but can i? I type this yesterday before i sleep in my phone. I have more than this to say but i am not feeling well last nite and it is 2am in the morning. So this is what i typed : MADAM. I hate to be alone. I don't like the feeling so i wanted you to be with me and since you are driving to the place i and you is going so i ask if you want to bring me there. Another thing is that i want to spend more time with you. Just being by your side is enough cause i will not be able to see you very soon. You are leaving. And you will be very busy. I don't think i can message you that often when school reopens cause i got to study and you will be busy even if you are free you got to do your house work so where will you have time to reply my message and go online often anymore. It is easy to say but it will be hard to do it. Tell me when will i see you again. Next year? Or maybe not anymore. Just bear with me for 2 more days will you? after this two days i will not disturb you anymore. I will give you peace and so on. Just bear with me. After you say that to me yesterday i can't think of a topic to start talking to you any more. If you think i am disturbing you or i had messaged you too much. I am sorry. I will not say why i did that. If not it will seems like i am giving reasons for everything that i had done.
2 more days.
I miss MA and PA!