Saturday, May 17, 2008
FREEDOM
3:52 AM
Exams are finally over. Finally i can chill a little and enjoy myself. Cause i had been working so hard for the whole week. I sleep at 12am everyday. I told myself not to sleep later than that beacuse the next day i will be having paper. If i sleep later than that i will be too sleepy to do any papers. Later at around 4pm will be meeting Joana and Amanda Goo. Going to catch a movie. Sorry Ah Chen can't go out with you guys to go skating. I dun really like sports. But if there is other outing without sports one i will go ok. Let me talk abit about my exams. Emath paper was ok. I score a A1 from what i heard from my math teacher. History was not very good. I am sorry. Hai. Social Studies teacher haven mark finish. Haha. English i don't care to ask my teacher. Physics i never had a chance to talk to her. Chemistry teacher say i got an A1 for my paper2. Overall still must see my MCQ and CA1 results. Hope to get a A1. Amath just had my paper yesterday. Will be asking my teacher this weekend for my results. Haha. POA i don't dare talk to my teacher. Chinese lazy to ask my teacher. That should be all. Juz hope that my results will be good. Hope to get lots of A1. Also i hope that i will not break into tears when i get back my history and english result. So i will be having a long weekend this week. Cause there will be a public holiday on monday. Maybe going out on that day. Cause got go get some things done before school close.
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I don't know why. I have lost my directions this few days. I have slowly became to hate you. You can treat him like a brother but treat my like a nobody. It hurts me you know. I have not been talking to you for a few days and you see you don't have any feelings that something is wrong. I don't wish to talk to you face to face cause i don't have the courage to and of cause how would i be able to tell you all this. So i will not be talking to you anymore. If i talk to you about this i think i will be going to show you my attitude. I hate showing people attitude so i rather not talk to the person. If you have some feeling than treat me like a human being. I don't mind that i can't be a 'younger sister' of yours. But at least treat me like a human being or what. I don't understand why you can treat me and him so differently. I know that people will be bias towards the people they like but you are doing things too obvious and it will hurt other people. Message you, you didn't reply. But i think if something happen to him and i message u to inform you i think less than a min you will reply. So i stopped messaging you. When i chat with you in the MSN, u didn't reply. You maybe is not at the computer as what i told myself everytime. But once i talk to you about him you seems so into and replied me. Told you about my studies, you say you can teach me. But you will charge me. But when i say that he don't know his's work. You say that he can ask you and you will teach him for free. Do you see the difference? It obvious that the person is bias right? But all this i kept to myself. But now i want to say this out is because that i don't want to keep it to myself anymore. It makes me feel terrible. Sorry. It may means that i am jealous or what. The truth is i am jealous. So? The reason is you told me because of some reasons you only take him as a little brother in this place. And don't like others calling you JIE or wad. But.. Oh nevermind. I still treat you as a friend of mine but i don't know how to face you. If you happen to read this. I got to say SORRY to you. I am SORRY. :) As to the him. You will also always be my KOR no matter what happen. :)
I miss my papa n mama. <333
Love you all lots.
jie, ma , pa ,kor
Exams are finally over. Finally i can chill a little and enjoy myself. Cause i had been working so hard for the whole week. I sleep at 12am everyday. I told myself not to sleep later than that beacuse the next day i will be having paper. If i sleep later than that i will be too sleepy to do any papers. Later at around 4pm will be meeting Joana and Amanda Goo. Going to catch a movie. Sorry Ah Chen can't go out with you guys to go skating. I dun really like sports. But if there is other outing without sports one i will go ok. Let me talk abit about my exams. Emath paper was ok. I score a A1 from what i heard from my math teacher. History was not very good. I am sorry. Hai. Social Studies teacher haven mark finish. Haha. English i don't care to ask my teacher. Physics i never had a chance to talk to her. Chemistry teacher say i got an A1 for my paper2. Overall still must see my MCQ and CA1 results. Hope to get a A1. Amath just had my paper yesterday. Will be asking my teacher this weekend for my results. Haha. POA i don't dare talk to my teacher. Chinese lazy to ask my teacher. That should be all. Juz hope that my results will be good. Hope to get lots of A1. Also i hope that i will not break into tears when i get back my history and english result. So i will be having a long weekend this week. Cause there will be a public holiday on monday. Maybe going out on that day. Cause got go get some things done before school close.
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I don't know why. I have lost my directions this few days. I have slowly became to hate you. You can treat him like a brother but treat my like a nobody. It hurts me you know. I have not been talking to you for a few days and you see you don't have any feelings that something is wrong. I don't wish to talk to you face to face cause i don't have the courage to and of cause how would i be able to tell you all this. So i will not be talking to you anymore. If i talk to you about this i think i will be going to show you my attitude. I hate showing people attitude so i rather not talk to the person. If you have some feeling than treat me like a human being. I don't mind that i can't be a 'younger sister' of yours. But at least treat me like a human being or what. I don't understand why you can treat me and him so differently. I know that people will be bias towards the people they like but you are doing things too obvious and it will hurt other people. Message you, you didn't reply. But i think if something happen to him and i message u to inform you i think less than a min you will reply. So i stopped messaging you. When i chat with you in the MSN, u didn't reply. You maybe is not at the computer as what i told myself everytime. But once i talk to you about him you seems so into and replied me. Told you about my studies, you say you can teach me. But you will charge me. But when i say that he don't know his's work. You say that he can ask you and you will teach him for free. Do you see the difference? It obvious that the person is bias right? But all this i kept to myself. But now i want to say this out is because that i don't want to keep it to myself anymore. It makes me feel terrible. Sorry. It may means that i am jealous or what. The truth is i am jealous. So? The reason is you told me because of some reasons you only take him as a little brother in this place. And don't like others calling you JIE or wad. But.. Oh nevermind. I still treat you as a friend of mine but i don't know how to face you. If you happen to read this. I got to say SORRY to you. I am SORRY. :) As to the him. You will also always be my KOR no matter what happen. :)
I miss my papa n mama. <333
Love you all lots.
jie, ma , pa ,kor