Saturday, May 24, 2008
CRIES
4:09 PM
Whenever i saw you in the picture we took together i wanted to cry. I am missing you. It is only a day i have not see you and i am missing you so much. I can't imagine how much i will miss you when i will not get to see you for more than half a year unless i go find you. But i doubt both of us are that free to meet up so often. Recalling that you are leaving me that means no one would 'bully' me again or to make my smile and laugh and even cry. It's going to be boring without. I am going to miss you like mad. I regarded that i never spend more time with you before you left. I always regarded after people left me. I am so STUPID. I am going to treasure whatever i have now. But i still wish to spend all my holiday time with you although you still have to leave me. I don't care. At least we will have more memory of one another. Wanted to message you but i just can't think of any topic to talk to you. You also told me that they is always a way to keep in contact with one another. By MSN, message rather than meet ups. But something is still missing without you. I just can't put it into words. It's the feeling. What i had promise you before you left i will keep my promise and will try my VERY BEST to reach it. I hope that you will ever forget me your student. I also hope that you will be back to visit me often. I keep asking myself. Why must you leave. Why must you leave. But i never ask you in person because i am scared that making you explain to me you will cry and etc. So i never asked the question. I only have one wish. That is I hope that after you start a new chapter in you life please do not forget the current chapter. Cause in this chapter i am inside it. There is also someone that told me that. If i never go through all this i will never grow up. If i don't want to grow up, it is that i will not go through all this? If can i rather be young than to go through all this. I had never felt so bad. This is the first time i feel this way. Cause i had never think that suddenly someone that is so close to me will leave me. I will go through this again next year. Cause next year it will be the last year in Loyang Secondary School and there are many people that i love is in this place and i will be leaving to continue the other chapters of my life. Thinking of this. I felt bad cause you see when someone leave me i felt bad cause i want them to be by my side but i had never thought of that i will be leaving them next year. It is fair to them if i want them by my side till i leave this school. It is not fair i know but sorry i still wants you to be by my side. Or stay till i leave the school and we will leave together? Sorry i want to be selfish for just once. :) I don't know what will happen afte you left. if i don't like the teacher that take over you to teach my class. Sorry but i wil show her my attitude but i will not let my results drop.
Love you always. <3
Whenever i saw you in the picture we took together i wanted to cry. I am missing you. It is only a day i have not see you and i am missing you so much. I can't imagine how much i will miss you when i will not get to see you for more than half a year unless i go find you. But i doubt both of us are that free to meet up so often. Recalling that you are leaving me that means no one would 'bully' me again or to make my smile and laugh and even cry. It's going to be boring without. I am going to miss you like mad. I regarded that i never spend more time with you before you left. I always regarded after people left me. I am so STUPID. I am going to treasure whatever i have now. But i still wish to spend all my holiday time with you although you still have to leave me. I don't care. At least we will have more memory of one another. Wanted to message you but i just can't think of any topic to talk to you. You also told me that they is always a way to keep in contact with one another. By MSN, message rather than meet ups. But something is still missing without you. I just can't put it into words. It's the feeling. What i had promise you before you left i will keep my promise and will try my VERY BEST to reach it. I hope that you will ever forget me your student. I also hope that you will be back to visit me often. I keep asking myself. Why must you leave. Why must you leave. But i never ask you in person because i am scared that making you explain to me you will cry and etc. So i never asked the question. I only have one wish. That is I hope that after you start a new chapter in you life please do not forget the current chapter. Cause in this chapter i am inside it. There is also someone that told me that. If i never go through all this i will never grow up. If i don't want to grow up, it is that i will not go through all this? If can i rather be young than to go through all this. I had never felt so bad. This is the first time i feel this way. Cause i had never think that suddenly someone that is so close to me will leave me. I will go through this again next year. Cause next year it will be the last year in Loyang Secondary School and there are many people that i love is in this place and i will be leaving to continue the other chapters of my life. Thinking of this. I felt bad cause you see when someone leave me i felt bad cause i want them to be by my side but i had never thought of that i will be leaving them next year. It is fair to them if i want them by my side till i leave this school. It is not fair i know but sorry i still wants you to be by my side. Or stay till i leave the school and we will leave together? Sorry i want to be selfish for just once. :) I don't know what will happen afte you left. if i don't like the teacher that take over you to teach my class. Sorry but i wil show her my attitude but i will not let my results drop.
Love you always. <3